So this blog is about finding a way to live and love wholeheartedly. For years I’ve been trying to find that one thing that would make me “what I’m suppose to be.” That one job. That one career. Or hobby. A calling of sorts. The problem with putting all your eggs in one basket is it leaves me feeling like I’m neglecting other bits of myself.
I’m always left feeling like I’m missing something.
In my journey to finding the career of my dreams, I have started [and started and started] over and over again. The rush of beginning something new and the love of the learning curve only leads me down a road that eventually ends. And I’m left looking for the new thing to bring me to my fullest potential.
The only thing about living this way is I’m constantly flowing through a cycle of ups and downs. Thrills and disappointment.
It’s taken me quite awhile to realize that each high and low is bringing me one step closer to “my thing.” Each phase leads to the next and leaves me a little wiser or knowledgable about the future. It feels like nothing is getting accomplished when, really, it is.
For instance, in my effort to find what I am, I have discovered something profound; I have learned what I am not.
- I love taking photos but joining the paparazzi would be hell for me since I don’t get the thrill of invading people’s privacy.
- I don’t enjoy repetitive non-thinking tasks. I need stimulation and thrive on learning curves.
- Setting up a coffee shop or consignment store would be a blast but there’s no way I could sit behind a counter and do nothing.
- Painting and creative projects excite me but I don’t like the idea of fitting my art into other people’s ideas of “good art” to make a living.
- I am always up for a challenge but I am not one to crush others to get ahead. Corruption is not my bag.f
- There is no way I could own a liquor store. Sure it would be lots of money but I wouldn’t be able to bring myself to sell alcohol to someone I know is struggling with it.
I could go on and on. It’s not easy finding that one career that encompasses everything I love – in reality, my career is something I have to create on my own since my ideal job doesn’t exist yet – but learning who I am and what doesn’t fit only brings me closer to what I’m meant to do.
Have you found your calling? Have you answered it? Comment below… I’d love to hear your thoughts.
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